Addicted

You gave it up for a while. You saw that it was foolishness and saw there was a better way. It was clear: success was inevitable if you were willing to "live like no one else, so later you could live like no one else." But later didn't come fast enough for you. So now you're back to the ways that held you hostage in the first place- you're addicted to borrowed money. Credit cards have their hold on you again...right around your financial throat. Student loans seem handy now (for much more than school!) but when it's over you know they'll haunt you for 20+ years- you have no willpower to rid yourself of them. Creative financing...for things you just can't live without- this will turn the things you call a blessing into a curse. And since you haven't saved for car repairs or a new car you'll have no choice when yours falls apart but to finance another car. But in the meantime, maybe you could refinance some of that credit card debt into the car...
Addicted.
It's too hard to be "weird" and the clothes aren't as new and nice on the weird side. And you work so hard in life, don't you deserve nice things NOW??
Like a physically abusive relationship, you just can't get away. This is just the way it has to be for you. Like a drug, "stuff" is something you "need." You couldn't possibly go several years without a fix of "stuff." It has you. It beats you up, but you stay anyway. You don't have the vision to see your tomorrows, only the right now.
You're addicted, powerless, and normal.
Because normal is broke.
Will you ever break free? Will you ever get truly weird? Only you can decide the answer.

Normal is broke. I wanna be WEIRD.